I felt my throat tighten.
“Yeah, buddy,” I said. “It really is.”
Later, as we cleaned up, Holly asked whether we could have pancakes again the following weekend.
“Of course,” I replied.
Ryan looked at me.
“Same time next Saturday?”
I met his eyes.
There had been a time when that question would have felt like an obligation.
Now it felt like an opportunity.
“Same time,” I promised.
And I meant it.
I had lost the marriage I’d once taken for granted.
Helena had found someone who appreciated her, and I had no right to ask her to give that happiness up.
I couldn’t reverse the choices I’d made.
But I could choose what kind of father I wanted to be from that moment forward.
For once, I wasn’t dreaming about the life I’d lost.
I was grateful for the chance to build a better relationship with the children who still wanted me in theirs.