It was less than he wanted.
More than he deserved.
“Accept,” he said.
“You should read the full terms.”
“I will. But accept.”
Peter paused.
“That may be the wisest thing you’ve said since this began.”
Mark almost smiled.
Almost.
That evening, he sat in the nursery and began writing letters.
Dear Grace,
I missed the first time you cried. I will regret that for the rest of my life. But I heard about it, and I imagine it was fierce.
Dear Lily,
Your mother says you make a face when you don’t like the bottle. I hope one day you make that face at me when I deserve it.
Dear Hope,
Your name is the bravest thing I know.
He wrote until his hand ached.
Weeks passed.
The girls grew stronger by ounces and milliliters, by small improvements that once would have seemed meaningless to him and now felt like miracles. Mark learned the language of premature infancy. He learned to ask about oxygen saturation, feeding schedules, weight gain, and corrected age. He learned to listen without making himself the center of the conversation.
Emily remained careful.
Not cruel.
Careful.
Sometimes during video calls, he caught glimpses of the place where she was staying. A pale blue wall. A window overlooking trees. A woman’s voice in the background humming old lullabies.
One afternoon, he heard a man laugh softly offscreen.
Mark’s chest tightened.
“Who’s there?” he asked before he could stop himself.
Emily’s expression cooled.
“My cousin Daniel. He brought groceries.”
“Oh.”
Jealousy rose fast and useless.
He swallowed it.
“Tell him thank you.”
Emily looked surprised.
Then nodded.
“I will.”
It was a small victory, invisible to anyone else.
But Mark felt it.
He was learning not to grab at things simply because he feared losing them.
On the sixth week after the birth, Emily agreed to meet him in person.
Not at the house.
Not with the babies.
At a quiet public garden halfway between the city and wherever she had been staying.
Mark arrived early and found her seated on a bench beneath a maple tree. She wore a soft blue sweater and moved carefully when she stood. The surgery still lived in her body. He could see it in the way she protected her middle, in the slight pause before each step.
For a moment, all he could see was the woman he had failed.
“Emily,” he said.
She nodded.
“Mark.”
He wanted to hug her.
He did not.
