Part 6
My mother made her attempt in August.
She showed up in the hospital lobby with a bouquet of peonies and told the volunteer at the desk she was there to surprise me for my birthday.
My birthday is in November.
The charge nurse that day was a friend of mine named Veda, a woman who could silence an entire hallway with one raised eyebrow. She called me at home while I was asleep after a night shift.
“Arden, your mother is in the lobby with flowers. She says it is your birthday.”
“It is not my birthday.”
“That is what I thought.”
I sat up in bed, sunlight cutting through the blinds.
“What do you want me to do?” Veda asked.
“Tell her I am not available. Please have security escort her out if she refuses to leave.”
“You sure?”
I looked around my bedroom. My bedroom. The one nobody had used. The one nobody had told me to stay out of.
“Yes.”
Veda handled it.
Later, she told me my mother cried loudly enough for three people to stop and stare. She asked the security guard if he had children. She asked whether he would let them treat him this way.
The guard said, “I hope my children set boundaries if I ever make them need to.”
I sent him a thank-you card through Veda.
The peonies ended up in the break room. They were beautiful for three days, then collapsed all at once, petals falling like tissue paper onto the counter.
That felt about right.
In September, I adopted a rescue dog named Juniper from a shelter outside Mooresville. She was forty pounds of suspicious mutt with one floppy ear and the emotional range of a retired detective. The first time I brought her to the lake house, she walked from room to room, sniffing every corner as if making sure nobody else had a claim.
I understood the feeling.
I also started therapy.
My therapist, Dr. Selene Marr, had an office that smelled like cedar and peppermint tea. On our first visit, I told the lake house story like a chart: facts, timeline, evidence, outcome.
When I finished, she said, “That is what happened. Now tell me why it took thirty-six years for you to lock the door.”
I opened my mouth.
Nothing came out.
The little fountain in the corner kept bubbling.
Finally, I said, “I did not know I was allowed to.”
She nodded.
